In your arms is where i'd like to be right now.

Hello, this post is going to be wordy, i'm sorry. 

School is draining me out, feeling so restless every single day. 

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"I want to wake up to that view in your window, the one that overlooks everything below. I want to wake up in your arms, my skin pressed against yours. I want to shower in your bathroom and wash my face in your sink. I want to make you coffee and have toast with you. I want to read the morning paper with you and drive to work with you. I want to have our photo in a frame at the corner of my desk. I want to come home from work to you. I want to hold you and feel you and love you properly. I want to make dinner with you. I want to do the dishes and sort the laundry with you. I want to get ready for bed with you. I want to fall asleep in your arms, and wake up to you and do everything all over again. I want to be with you."

"You don't just automatically love someone. You have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you're jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can't be jealous anymore. You can't because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you're irreplaceable. That's when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it's unbreakable."

"And yeah, my life would probably be a whole hell of a lot easier if I just walked out that door right now. I know that. But the thing is, I already know that there's not one fucking thing on the other side of that door could ever come close to making me as happy as I am when I'm with you. That's why I'm here, because I love you. No matter how hard things get, no matter what shit life throws at us, there's nowhere else I'd rather be. I want to spend the rest of my life right here, right next to you."

People come and go. Why can't good things stay and bad things end? Trying to stay happy everyday but this seems tough. I'm thankful for those who never left. I need to stop thinking negatively, it will only ruins my mood, but i can't help it. I'd be lying if i said i'm not afraid. I miss those days whereby smiles are real. "Things fall apart so better things can fall together." Quoted from my bestfriend, and yup, i really wish so. Hard times don't last, i will be a survivor.